Love Pain Junkie

There's this ache 

It starts in your belly

Just a dull weak ache

There for Days

Weeks

Lifetimes 

Then one day it moves into your chest

Sometimes it's a quick 2 beat jab

2 beats that could lay out a weaker soul

Sometimes it's a month long tremor 

That threatens your sanity

It creeps into your throat

You can feel the burn in your resolve

Then one day you stop

You nourish the pain

With all of the Sweetness

Promises

Grace

Beauty

Soon to be

Transformed to Miles

Longing

Heartache

Tears

Then you try and remember

Before this 

What did you feel

In that vast expanse of Normality

Sanity

Agonizingly 

Tepid 

Reality

It's then that you realize

The worthiness of the pain

Outweighs the indifference

Every

Time

And you long for the ache

In the hardest

Sadistic way

The ache drives you to the edge

Makes you crack open your chest

Stare directly at the Universe

Beg the Divine

And find yourself

And find yourself